A very welcome guest post to mark the 50th anniversary of the death of Sylvia Plath, contributed by my dear and esteemed friend Jackie Leach Scully, another graduate of Newnham College.
There are a lot of women of a certain age
– around 50 – who have, let’s say, an ambivalent relationship with the story of
Sylvia Plath. Some of us were attracted
to her by the romantic suicide magnet, at least before we stopped being
adolescent and daft and realised that suicide is all sorts of things but one
thing it isn’t is romantic. In my
defence, I can claim that what first turned me on to Plath was not anything to
do with her reputation as a professional depressive but just these lines,
reproduced in some piece of teenage fiction that I read:
I should sit on a rock off Cornwall and
comb my hair.
I should wear tiger pants, I should have
an affair.
We should meet in another life, we should
meet in air,
Me and you.
(That this came from a longer poem
entitled ‘Lesbos’ was a bonus for a sexual identity-wobbly 14 year old, but
that’s not relevant just at the moment.)
And like others, I then went through the
“identification with mad girl” phase (poet=heightened sensitivity=I Don’t Know
Where I Belong But Wherever It Is It Isn’t Here=me!); to the impatient,
oh-get-a-life phase (as the philosopher Jacqueline Rose said, on finishing her
book on Plath: “I’m sick of mad girls”); and then finally on to a reluctant
empathy that’s to do with the understanding, which comes to some of us over
time, of what it’s like to feel betrayed and abandoned and voiceless. Plath was unusual in having the capacity
to write about those experiences in a way that speaks to a broader sense of the
human condition, over and above confessional self-indulgence.
Along with the sympathy I’ve struggled
with the difficult fact that her act of self-destruction so bluntly involved
her children, a few doors away and protected from the oven gas by towels; and
yet some of us are also familiar with the level of stricken despair that takes
you to a place from which your perspective on your own self, and on your
children and what might really be best for them, becomes, for want of a better
term, Martian.
I’ve no idea what Plath might or might
not have gone on to do had she been found in time (as some evidence suggests
she thought she would be) on the morning of 11 February 1963. What I hope
endures of her is not the maudlin suicide artist stuff, nor the simplistic myth
of the mentally unstable and therefore doomed woman, but respect for the
clarity of vision and discipline that enabled her to transform painful and
difficult experiences into words like these:
Nick and the Candlestick
I am a miner. The light burns blue.
Waxy stalactites
Drip and thicken, tears
The earthen womb
Exudes from its dead boredom.
Black bat airs
Wrap me, raggy shawls,
Cold homicides.
They weld to me like plums.
Old cave of calcium
Icicles, old echoer.
Even the newts are white,
Those holy Joes.
And the fish, the fish -
Christ! they are panes of ice,
A vice of knives,
A piranha
Religion, drinking
Its first communion out of my live toes.
The candle
Gulps and recovers its small altitude,
Its yellows hearten.
O love, how did you get here?
O embryo
Remembering, even in sleep,
Your crossed position.
The blood blooms clean
In you, ruby.
The pain
You wake to is not yours.
Love, love,
I have hung our cave with roses,
With soft rugs –
The last of Victoriana.
Let the stars
Plummet to their dark address,
Let the mercuric
Atoms that cripple drip
Into the terrible well,
You are the one
Solid the spaces lean
on, envious.
You are the baby in
the barn.
I remember seeing the grave in Heptonstall, West Yorkshire in the early 1970s. I sent a copy to Jacqueline Rose who was my personal tutor at the RCA (how we share through Plath so many threads of our lives) before, I think, she was writing the book.
ReplyDeleteI was first shown Plath's Bell Jar in 1969-ish by Janet, a flame-haired English under-graduate from Newcastle's English dept. We were in Walkergate Skin Hospital pyjamas when we jumped out of a hospital window. I've not really stopped jumping since.
The headstone was disfigured "by feminists" in 1979 - I knew one of the women from Nottingham who allegedly did it - and the position changed. Originally, the grave was bare, but not neglected. It was quite austere, deliberately so I feel. The crowding petals of adoring fans makes it look terrible.